I’m sorry that I’ve been so MIA recently. I am very excited to be pregnant with baby #4- yay!
I have, however, been struggling with nausea and exhaustion for the last couple months that really took me out of the game. I felt basically useless to my hubby and kids and everyone else. I would drag myself around the house trying to feed three busy, hungry kids (and myself if I could think of something that wouldn’t make me gag), homeschooling my eldest, attempting to stay on top of laundry and basic cleaning, and then I would crash as soon as they were all asleep. My hubby just headed back to school full-time, so that’s been an adjustment as well (since he’s out of town at least 2 days a week). I’m so happy to see the way it’s filling him and how the Lord is working in his mind and heart-super encouraging…but, it was still quite tricky with him being gone while I was so sick. Suffice it to say, I was in a pretty low place at times. Josiah really stepped up and took on a lot more around here and a number of family members provided some delicious meals to tide us over when I could barely open the fridge. I’m so thankful for their support.
I need to share, though, that if I’m being honest with myself, I was letting the enemy drown me in my misery at times. Sure, I felt awful physically, but that doesn’t mean I had to let that affect my spiritual health. I wasn’t taking hold of God’s grace in the way I should have been. I wasn’t reaching out for the lifeline that He has provided for us. Hebrews 4:16 says, “Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.”
Dear ones, please learn from my mistake. If you are feeling hurt, worn out, lonely, in pain…draw near to the throne of grace. James 4:8 says, “Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you.” Don’t try to soldier on by yourself, living in survival mode. He has so much more for you and for me. Let’s take hold of it together!
P.S. Here’s a little 8×10 print to help us remember.